Socializing tool:
Phone
It comes to a conclusion that phone is just a tool for socializing. Other than functions like map or navigation to guide, to me its just a tool that connects everyone together all the time but not just the time of needs. And we wonder, how people in the past survive on times without it? Well, i truly have no idea, but seemly true enough is, everyone is much more sincere in communication. No longer a simple texts, but letter and the effort make to pass one message is sincered enough. Yet now, although it brings people together at anytime, it still seems to lack of something.
Now, phone is no longer that important to me anymore, i used to be someone who goes frantic without my phone by me. And i will be checking my phone all the time. Well, i believed that im those which is sincered in replying every single msg. At least on my part, i played my best. But there is always ppl out there that is treating it like air. I deem these effort as precious, yet it seems invisible to others. I wonld not deny it sucks when what you deem as important or precious was just a piece if junk. So all the hardwork we had put in are just extra? Just wondering, is it just me that is the weird one.
the one that walks with you till the end, is you/-
It's a sneaky one ;
time
Well, i still can remember not long ago, i decided to step out into the world, leaving a cosy school enviroment to strive for a better life. So, year 2011 i got myself a job as a sales and took my O's for once more. It dint occured to me until now that time can slipped by so fast without us noticing. I have been in the society for like a year now, preparing to get into school life again. Everything seems to be a long road until you take the first step and continue walking. With different daily event, time actually past by so fast. My sis is taking her psle, my bro is in the university and im stepping into a whole new enviroment that no one had ever thought of at all. Can't denied that i have been worrying about surviving the upcoming three years time, yet i believe, these three years can actually past by fast, and I will not let it be another part of my regrets. With too many regrets, it maybe saddening, but regret is just like a result slip and the test paper, without them, you never know how you fare and what you have done wrong. I suppose time have trained me well for a better man, but i am not gonna let time do the job. i will have to put in effort too.
Like always, Determination never appeared in my dictionary at all. This time, i will put that in myself, NO more excuses for the thing i cant achieve or i fail to do. I will make sure whatever i failed, i will succeed the next time. No i will not let it pass, i will pick myself up at where i fall. This a promised.
-/IM DETERMINED
Like Always...
Sometimes i wonder, am i the only one, waiting for the impossible.
Yest. was really a tiring day though, slept at three plus four and i woke up at six plus to pay my grandpa a visit in the cemetry. Since i have shifted, the trip there was.. well pretty much closer. Its like a ten mins drive away. Glad that the weather on the day itself and the day before was dry. Therefore the greens there aint like muddy or watery. So its quite a pleasent trip. What did surprised me was there is this van over there which is selling drinks! Its quite a rare chance to see that, and i wondered, will he earn alot like that? But it comes to a conclusion that, no he's not going to earn alot, because the visit there is short enough for "nowadays vistor" and provided, no adult actually brought their younger generation like my mum did though. So chances are, its not that profitable.
So i do have some plan for my new life in polytechnic, yet because of little determination in me, i at times wonder will it be something impossible to carry out with. I have long and yearn for a more packed-up life as i love feeling busy always! But im always stuck in dilemma that whether a picking a sport CCA will be wise as my course would require much committment. I simply do not wish to divert necessary attention to other area of interest instead of studies(which is rather important at this point of time)
At some point of times, i envy my friends' life! They seems so carefree and have plenty of times to enjoy their life in poly or even JC. While im here, going to strive for a brighter future in order to be ready to provide a better life for my family members. Let alone having to support my sister for her future studies in the future. Everything seems to be hard to achieve, and i felt that im always an underachiever. Oh my, life ahead would be so stress.
But i will no deny that, without this life of mine, i will not be who i am now. Everything may seems difficult, yet i believe what i learnt from all that will be far more worth it. So why compare? since at the end of the day, life will be fair in either ways.
Having the urge to talk about Katy Perry's Part of me, inspiring enough and it speaks what's on my mind. Seeing that she have cut her hair in the mv and join the US Marines seriously makes me boiled with passion. How i wish i can be like her. And i told myself, one day i will have my hair snip off, and enjoy my life as a hardy soul. And that is a PART OF ME that i never ever want it to disappear. I swore to be a lady that can support the family in anyway, i want people to respect me and i want to be able to succeed in what i want to achieve. On a side note,
US MARINES ROCKS!
